I close my eyes
And exhale-
Squinting through shadows
Focusing on a bright light
A source of relevation
Increasing the capacity to be
Fully present
In this moment
Even though life is
Fully chaotic
Unclear
Full of knots and cannot-
Squeezing
Fists full of ache
Twisting
Enveloping
Questioning
What is and what is not
Nothing changes quickly enough
An uncomfortable space is born
And expands into undecided
Peripheries
Continually battling-
In a knock out fight
Brutally revealing
Resistance
The pull of gravity
Unravels years of turmoil
Increasingly
Full and empty-
Leveraging the pain
Teetering between
The past and present
Memories
Inexplicably divided
Revealing
A breaking point
Or merely a pinnacle
of strength
Only to be reinforced,
By letting go–
Gaping wounds
Exposed in the light of day
Carve ornate inscriptions-
Within caverns
Leaving behind indentations-
Messages designed to communicate
An evolution of becoming authentic
Vulnerable just enough,
to listen–
Formally addressed
By truth-
Resonating deeply
Rising against
and
Breaking through
Misunderstandings
Unveiled by
Faith-
I don’t know about everyone else
But I press my ear to heaven
And it happens,
Just like that
In a blink
Before it’s too late
A heart realigns itself again
How sweet the sound-
A handwritten note
Suddenly makes me
More aware
Unequivocally declaring,
I am
In need
of a heart
Filled with peace–
I retreat and
Fall to my knees,
Promising not to go back,
the way in which I came–
Learning to become
all over again.
